Hi Sweetheart,

I'd show you what it'd be like to have it all.
& i'd still love you when the lights went out

lifetime thoughts

people have to face regrets. becoming mature means learning to accept
what you cannot change, facing unresolved
sorrows and learning to love life as it really happens, not as you would have it happen..life isn't supposed to be an all or nothing battle between misery & bliss, it isn't supposed
to be a battle at all. & when it comes to happiness, sometimes life is just okay, sometimes
it's comfortable, sometimes wonderful, sometimes boring, & sometimes unpleasant. when
your day's not perfect, it's not a failure or a terrible loss. it's just another day
disguises will never work everyone knows who you are. you aren't
fooling anybody. don't act up above your standards

destination

You're amazing but you're taking too much time
I’ve only got six candles left And I’m trying to keep this off my mind
It’s getting darker but it’s the way they make me feel
They try to fill my head with questions
They all doubt you but I know you're real
If it takes time then I’ll be patient
Know that I will still believe I’ll take your hand and hold it tightly 'cause
I know you’ll carry me
Take me high, Take me in, Take these last six candles
And when I’m tired, and wearing thin
Give me the strength to carry on
Here I am, see my hands, take these last six candles
We’re moving on, we’ll keep, keep, moving on
And I’m so thankful for every breath I take
There's not a moment that goes by I waste wiping tears out of my crying face
Don’t look so sad, you’ve missed the point
I’m still so glad I knew you against the odds
I’ll take my chances and burn this candle through you
If I could ever see the way you understand me
When no one else can see it I know you surround me
I’ll be the one who listens only when you tell me
Not walking but running, not talking, yelling
And they might never understand why I do what I do
But I can only speak my mind
And what I feel is true I’ll take a vow to be the only one who stands if it takes
All that I am, I will be standing, there

shattered & rebuilt promises

But
i can't promise you perfection, cause that is not who i am.
i can't promise you forever, cause i don't hold fate within my hands.
i can't promise you the sunshine, because i know there will be rain.
i can't promise you complete happiness, cause with true love, there comes pain.
i can't promise to always smile, cause life always has a way to make me cry.
i can't promise to always stand strong, cause it's never easy to want to give life another try
all i can promise you is me myself and i.
i can promise to always be there when you need someone.
i can promise to be fully loyal and love you to the best of my abilities.
I can promise to fight for this when things get rough

and most of all not give up without that fight

please explain

why am i so afraid?
♥
to crash down,
♥
and lose my heart again

Artistic Touch

rant # a millon

i think we put too much effort into believing in people,situations & relationships. Thinking things can or will change. thinking that people do change and sometimes, time fixes things. I think when you believe someone can change or things change, you leave yourself in a situation you cant get out of. Cause now all thoughts, talks, and action are based on false hope of change. Sometimes we're too scared to give up because we don't know what else we'll find. Sometimes we stay in denial because we don't want to admit we were wrong once again. being in denial stops us from fully getting hurt and leaves us to believe that we can change someone. People don't change unless they want too. Some people are better at showing emotion than others and some just don't care like they say they do. it's hard to differentiate between the two. when things do a complete 180 in a matter of hours without explanation we start to way over think. there's always anwsers but whether you get the truth or not is dependent upon maturity. just remember when good things change, its because better things are comming.

complexity

i dont know why we all hang onto something when we know
we're better off letting go.
it's like we are scared to lose what
we don't even really have.
some of us say we'd rather have
something than absolutely nothing,
but the truth is, to have it halfway
is harder than not having it at all.