no need

Wish I was too dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I'll never live down my deceit

baby

baby baby,goodnight and good luck to you.you will talk to mebut I sure won't talk to you.baby baby, goodnight and good luck to you,you will come to see maybe I was the one for you.What do you say?Lets end this song today.She might be new,but she is overwhelming compared to you.But I wish you the best,I'll bet you regret losing meafter all this stress.I moved on and so did you your misery won't bring me down too.welcome back to this place stay out of town and out of state, I don't ever want to see your face

facts.fiction.life

undetermined

it's interesting how one phone call, one trip to the doctors or one knock on your door can virtually change your life as it stands. No more future plans, no more relif of knowing you have some kind of a plan. It's all take away by those communicational figures. You have to start over and re think everything out. you could lose someone you didn't even have yet. and have it feel substantially painful. Lose someone whom you thought was important. It can change your thought of mind, your beleifs, even your thought on life. It determins your motivation to succeed and conitune life as it is. with new changes. unexpected ones. maybe this is to teach you vaules. and how to over come such circumstances. I'm not really sure. but it's like everyones life plans or just admirable characteristics are falling apart and comming undone right before everyones eyes. and reality shows us there's nothing we can do.

learning

i've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others best but the best you can do. i've learned you can't make someone love you but you should be that person who can be loved. i've realized you can speak what you feel but people won't always care. rarely do they ever. i've learned things will never get to the point where it's accepted by everyone. i've noticed trust takes a long time to build up and only a split second to lose it all. i've learned to tell the people you love the sweet things, you never know if you'll be able to talk to them the next day. i've learned there are some people who do love you, they just don't know how to show it. i've learned you have to forgive yourself and accept certain events to be able to move on. i've learned if you are honest with yourself you'll get farther in life with less pain. i've realized memories can hurt because thats all they'll ever be. i've learned you shouldn't regret things because just remember at somepoint it was what you wanted. i've learned you don't have to put up with peoples negativity. i've learned it's hard to draw a line between love and lust. i've just learned

sometimes the truth hurts

you screwed me over like always

maybe one day you will be sorry

fiction

there are two kinds of secrets;

those we keep from others and those we keep from ourselves