freedom

newly alert

When you smile, I melt inside.
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you.
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes.
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss

truthbetold

"I've made this bad habbit of letting things happen,instead of chasing what i want."

unchangable

Don't attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you're lonely... Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best you can do is know yourself... know what you want

unreliable

so don’t come running to me
when that girl puts a hole through your heart,

because I'll just walkaway and leave you stranded.
Just like you left me when I needed you the most.

it ends sometime

And I know you have a heavy heart,
I can feel it when we kiss
The love I sell you in the evening
by the morning won't exist
I got a flask inside my pocket,
we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious
I will try and do the same
We might die from medication,
but we sure killed all the pain

lookback.

<3

" From here on out, I am only interested in what is real.

Real people, real feelings, that's it, that's all I'm interested in "

hope regret love

have you ever noticed we stay with the people that hurt us most. the people we know we shouldn't be with. but yet we have this attraction that overcomes the pain. it's rather unexplainable really.maybe we do it because it's the only thing nowadays we really have to fight for. even if its a one way street when it comes to feelings. you could love someone yet they may love someone else and you find yourself always around. eventually time has to take its tole right. and well, if it doesn't i persume we'd be rather stuck. sometimes we need new paths and new directions, but even if we are given those options some choose to stay on the same path. why? i could not really tell you. maybe it's because of hope? wheither it be false hope or true hope. hope is hope. hope that one day wheither it be a couple days, months or even years. perhaps everything you've faught for. will have meaning and purpose. if not then we fear regret and a waste of time.i guess you could say hope is the thing that keeps most going, in rough times.people teach us lessons relationships teach us lessons. if you don't end up where you'd hoped then eventually within time to come, you will have learned what drives you, motivates you and pushed you further. you will find new things to fight for. and you may even end upright back where you started. where attraction overcame pain.

constant change.

the truth of the matter is people constantly change. nothing in life is consitant ;its good. but there should be consitancy when it comes to friendships and relationships. people have never been taught how to respect people or accept commitment. cause no one has shown them that sometimes you WONT be let down. thats why everyone runs when things get hard cause your to scared to let people get close or talk shit through. society isnt showing people that you CAN have friendships. everytime something is really good people hide. and shut people out. noone wants to get hurt. nobody really trusts anyone. cause i've noticed it's true, when you do, you get screweed over. but i think its really important to look who you've had and who your true friends are. cause i garuntee that no matter what they will be there. maybe thats the problem? you get the comfort of knowing someones always there so you take advantage of it. i'd like to think this isn't true. but it is its reality and it sucks. people who talk shit and are inconsitant in friendships will win. because its what people want. they don't want someone thats always there. that scares them. sometimes i think it's pathetic.

clueless.facts.meaningless?

it will always be you over anything or anyone. i might be aware of how crazy it is. or that it's nothing to you but it happens anyways. my heart will always beat that one beat quicker then the rest around you. i'll always conciter you before them. anything else will be satisfation. not infactuation. you just might be the only one that makes my stomach crazy at the slightest touch. or even the thought of kissing you. it is close to impossible to ever stay mad. but it is possible to be constantly jealous. and almost sick. yet still proceed with encouraging what makes you sick. forever i won't leave. you may walk out but i won't. maybe i'm living off false hope&untrue words. they are whats steering me in the same path as always.maybe just maybe im addicted to that feeling i get around you and no one else. nothing can compare to those possible added up 15 minutes of complete chaos . nothing to you but something to me. i would love to scream at you every unsent letter i've ever wrote. or every feeling i've felt. it may not have been so hard if it was given a chance and it didn't work out. life isn't fair and life isn't easy. but maybe there is still hope.that down the line you'll clue in and grow up. its that gut instinct that doesn't let go. hell if i could change it i would. i really would. because this kind of pain is rather disheartning and makes it hard to believe that anything can be this real. but honeslty if it stays like this for the rest of life. then satisfaction will do. i can pretend to be extremely happy. that gut feeling will never leave though. you just get good at hiding it after a while. the one thing i do beleive in is that i won't feel this way with anyone else. sure i'm "too young" or i don't know what else there is. i dont need to know. i truly don't. you dont have to beleive a single word i say. but that feeling says it all, and i know you know it; you feel it with her.

relaxation.comfort

I swim across an ocean It's my matress in the basement I'm sweatin' out excuses That would make your stomach turn The road we drove last night Stretched from the desert to Las Vegas We filled our cups, and lit one up The snow began to burn maybe, we were made We were made for each other Ahh, is it possible for the World to look this way forever? I talked so much, I'm sure I didn't realize I'd gone crazy Didn't catch my bloody nose Or that my heart tried to explode I still live with my High School friends Some people never change at all We're still the same compulsive drunks We were when we were small A long way from from a firework daze But i still like to burn,I'm always in the haze of a car crash,The orange airbag dust covers everything;everything

no need

Wish I was too dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I'll never live down my deceit

baby

baby baby,goodnight and good luck to you.you will talk to mebut I sure won't talk to you.baby baby, goodnight and good luck to you,you will come to see maybe I was the one for you.What do you say?Lets end this song today.She might be new,but she is overwhelming compared to you.But I wish you the best,I'll bet you regret losing meafter all this stress.I moved on and so did you your misery won't bring me down too.welcome back to this place stay out of town and out of state, I don't ever want to see your face

facts.fiction.life

undetermined

it's interesting how one phone call, one trip to the doctors or one knock on your door can virtually change your life as it stands. No more future plans, no more relif of knowing you have some kind of a plan. It's all take away by those communicational figures. You have to start over and re think everything out. you could lose someone you didn't even have yet. and have it feel substantially painful. Lose someone whom you thought was important. It can change your thought of mind, your beleifs, even your thought on life. It determins your motivation to succeed and conitune life as it is. with new changes. unexpected ones. maybe this is to teach you vaules. and how to over come such circumstances. I'm not really sure. but it's like everyones life plans or just admirable characteristics are falling apart and comming undone right before everyones eyes. and reality shows us there's nothing we can do.

learning

i've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others best but the best you can do. i've learned you can't make someone love you but you should be that person who can be loved. i've realized you can speak what you feel but people won't always care. rarely do they ever. i've learned things will never get to the point where it's accepted by everyone. i've noticed trust takes a long time to build up and only a split second to lose it all. i've learned to tell the people you love the sweet things, you never know if you'll be able to talk to them the next day. i've learned there are some people who do love you, they just don't know how to show it. i've learned you have to forgive yourself and accept certain events to be able to move on. i've learned if you are honest with yourself you'll get farther in life with less pain. i've realized memories can hurt because thats all they'll ever be. i've learned you shouldn't regret things because just remember at somepoint it was what you wanted. i've learned you don't have to put up with peoples negativity. i've learned it's hard to draw a line between love and lust. i've just learned

sometimes the truth hurts

you screwed me over like always

maybe one day you will be sorry

fiction

there are two kinds of secrets;

those we keep from others and those we keep from ourselves

intensity

I've got this feeling that there's something that I missed
(I could do most anything to you...) Don't you breathe
Something happened, that I never understood
You can't leave
Every second, dripping off my fingertips
Wage your war
Another soldier, says he's not afraid to die Well I am scared
In slow motion, the blast is beautiful
Doors slam shut A clock is ticking,
but it's hidden far away
Safe and sound

undefinable

love is not perfect and it is not a fairytale or a story book,
it`s a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.
It does not always come easy, or with advantages.
Love is overcoming the obstacles, facing the challenges and fighting to be together,
holding on and never letting go of what you got.
Love is work, but most of all it is realizing that every hour,
every minuteof every second of it was worth it
because you were in it together.

nights like these

Life is made up of moments you can't control, and people you can either love or hate. No one in this life is perfect, we all make mistakes. Mistakes we can accept, or let control and contort our lives. No matter how old you are, how much you make or risks you take. It all comes down to you, don't blame people who you thought put you to shame. Take pride in your accomplishments, and move on from your short commings. Don't gloat or brag, be proud for the sake of being proud.Feel happy because you know you have earned it, not because someone made you feel that way, YOU DID IT. You've only got one life to live, make it or break it. Its yours for the taking."innocence is brilliant i hope that it will stay" It's nights like these that make me sleep all day. It's nights like these that make you feel so far away.It's nights like these when nothing is for sure. It's nights like these I don't want you anymore. And I've only got this one wish that I was good enough to make you forget the only boy who ever broke your heart cause nights like these tear me apart. It's nights like these the sad songs don't help. It's nightslike these your heart's with someone else. It's nights like these I feel like giving up

goodjob.

YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE.

WAS JUST AROUND THE CORNER.

BUT YOU TURNED THE WRONG WAY.

justifcation

you don't have to speak because I can hear your heartbeat fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink. you don't have to cover up how you feel when you're in love. I'll always know I'm not enough to even make you think.please, slow down, boy, we're moving way too fast for their world.

most indefinatley

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at crossroads . Afraid ; Confused ; Without a roadmap . The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us would rather turn around and go back . But once in awhile people push on to something better - something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in . Or to give someone a second chance . Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream . Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are . And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be .The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith & belief - and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead .

forever?or just tonight

The one thing I hate most is saying goodbye.
It’s never been easy for me.
I mean, how do you approach the concept of goodbye?
Goodbyes are all different. Some are for a day.
Some are for a month. But others are forever.
And the concept of forever is hard to accept.
It’s like ‘hey, I’m never going to see you again. Goodbye.”
It doesn’t feel complete, but I think that’s what goodbyes are.
They are incomplete & you honestly
don’t know how long the goodbye will last.
It’s a part of life, a part of life I could do without

be you.

promise yourself to be strong so that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimisim come true.think only of the best, work only for the best,and expect only the best.forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you

it's all comming back

when there's something you really want , fight for it , don`t give up no matter how hopeless it seems . and when you`ve lost hope , ask yourself if 10 years from now , you`re gonna wish you gave it just one more shot . because the best things in life ... don`t come free

smashing.

cuteness

What is cute? Cute is young and inexperienced.Cute is holding hands in the car and kissing at the red lights.What is sexy? Sexy is standing in the rain as you push me up againstthe hood of your car, tearing my shirt, as you kiss me with the intentto never stop. What is passion? Passion is knowing what you want andstopping at nothing until you get it. What is beautiful? Beautifulis all about the inside of a person. Beauty can only be found in the heart, passion is putting your heart in what you do. What is love? Love is the amazing balance of all of these things, in your mind, heart, body and soul.

theoritcally.

Infinite growth. Eternal change. Never-ending creation. It all begins with thought. Literally, every thought you think influences and adds to what you are experiencing. Yet most people's lives change very little. How do you account for that? People might say "I don't understand. You're telling me I'm responsible for everything in my life, yet there's no way I would have gotten caught up in this crisis on purpose!" Certainly not on purpose. Definitely by default. It is the lack of understanding of Universal Laws that has us creating our lives by default. Once you understand these Laws, you can begin to create what you want in your life consciously and deliberately.
We are creators. Anything you focus on, by Law of Attraction, you create. Without exception.

faithless

shame on me for liking you too much, shame on you for not liking me enough shame on me for the loud racing of my heart..shame on you for not hearing it shame on me for finding you so attractive, shame on you for not noticing shame on me for wanting to be with you- shame on you for avoiding me shame on me for being so pathetic..shame on you for taking advantage of it shame on me for not being able to let go& shame on you for never having latched on

maybe;just maybe

Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart

reality

from the moment you wake up till ur head hits the pillow
at night our lives are filled with questions
most are anwsered and soon forgotten
some questions are much harder to ask
cause were so afraid to get the anwser

your love

Clouds part just to give us a lesson. There's a limit to your love, like a waterfall in slow motion. Like a map with no ocean, there's a limit to your love. There's a limit to your care, so carelessly there. You that drove them down. It's a limit to your care. I love, I love, I love this drink on my stream. I love, I love, I love the trouble that you give me. I know, I know, I know that only I can save me. I'll go, I'll go, I'll go lie down alone. There's a limit to your love, like a waterfall in slow motion. Like a map with no ocean, there's a limit to your love. Your love, your love, your love. You can't really smile, it should be written on your face. I'm piecing it together. There's something out of place. I love, I love, I love this drink on my stream. I love, I love, I love the trouble that you give me. I know, I know, I know that only I can save me. I'll go, I'll go, I'll go out of love. Because there is no limit, there's no limit, no limit, no limit, to my love.

bethatperson

people are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; forgive themanyway. if you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulteriormotives; be kind anyway. if you are successful, you may win falsefriends and some true enemies; succeed anyway. if you are honestand frank, people may cheat you; be honest and frank anyway.what you spend years building, may be destroyed overnight; buildanyway. if you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; behappy anyway. the good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;do good anyway. give the world the best you have and you may gethurt and it may not be enough; give the world your best anyway. yousee, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was neverbetween you and them anyway

go hard.

meet new people. talk to old friends, new friends. ask questions. think hard about something. dont give up. don't judge. allow yourself to be open. consider options. be friendly. don't focus on love and lust. live your life a little differently then you planned. be adventurous. have new friends and keep them. make goals and attempt to obtain them. try a little harder for something. don't keep it simple all the time. sometimes things should be simple. kiss someone you wouldn't expect to. keep walls up. sometimes let them down. push yourself further. don't allow someone to take advantage of you. stand up for yourself. let loose and don't be shy. think of your furture. forget last night. love life. laugh and keep things close to your heart that deserve to be there.

tendency.

life isn't perfect, you have to overcome new obstacles each day. if life was even close to being perfect, it wouldn't be worth living. different sorts of things change on a daily basis & nothing's guarenteed to stay the same forever. you always seem to be obsessed over things you can't have but when you do have it you can't appreciate it. when you lose it, you want it back but when it's gone you can never understand why you let it go.. it's hard to wait around for something, that you know might never happen but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want. never have regrets the only people you need in your life, are the ones that need you in theirs. in the end, things have a possibility of not having the outcome you expected. everything happens for a reason, so instead of wondering why you think the world is not working in your favor, repair the damages you've caused. no matter how much you care or feel about someone it's not going to change the way they feel about you. some things never change and nothing is ever guaranteed to always be there. move on from the people in the past, there's a reason why they are not in your future.things always get worse before they get better. forgive - never forget. things usually only happen once, so make the best of it because you only have one chance at life..

Let's build a rocket to the moon Just you and I We could start a whole new world up there Leave our past behind BehindSometimes I can’t believe my eyes I want to stare up And get lost in the city lights Because I’ve had enough and this is the end And now I understand That a heart breaks it does not bend Someone please help me out I never meant to take this so far Now I’ve fallen way too hard Take a long step back to To The days when I was younger Decisions never mattered all this much It’s an emptied handed promise From my heart to my conscious That says one day I will make this count,The best that I know how, The closest that I am to living life on the edge Is packing all my bags, and heading off with my best friends So let it all go You have no worries now(I’ve made my decision) With the sun in your face you’re never beneath the clouds(I’m lifting) And all the along the way I found you wishing on those clouds to move away Grab my handLet's kiss the sun goodbye I know the way to go it’s never as easy as it may seem The takeoffs the landings, our rockets transcending Ordinary, what’s ordinary?

fromthesecondiwakeup

Dana baby girl you’ve got me missing you all day long From the second I wake up to the second my day is doneWith every breath that I take in Well Ill swear on every inch of my lungs I’m with you Yea I don’t know how to say this any other way but Every little thing is going to be all right So baby don’t you worry Because I have complete faith, that Things will be ok It’s just for now we sing So far away from home Everything’s such a daze No I don’t want to go It hurts to drive away Rear view mirror I can see Break lights hit your face As your waving me goodbye One good thing about the road Is that it opens up your eyes It will make you miss your home And everything thats right In your heart will be as clear As the North Carolina days Spent realizing who you are Don’t ever change

keeplearning;

Here's the day you hoped would never comeDon’t feed me violence,
just run with meThrough rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck
There, there, babyIt’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing upNow, now,
darlin’Oh don’t lose your head'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah
Sleeping pills, no sleeping dogs lie never
Far enough awayGlistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I’ve watched you slowly winding down for years
You can’t keep on like thisNow is as bad of time as any

sweet,sweet you

Your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,This idle hour just wont pass I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,Didn't think you'd feel so far away Your summer perfume is still, blowing through this hallway, Autumn's amber red shadows dance I miss our midnight rides on highway 18, 18 is gone So go past the lights and all the excuses You could have left "sincerely yours"Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?Cause anything too daring to say to you, Will be said in this letter, then burned away So you never realize, I'm here I'm thinking of your vague reply So I can understand Why we put this at rest Why we forget to Say that we were leaving Say that we were sorry The past remains unspoken As this vacant night is dieing But I still miss your summer perfume This cold air brings such a distance to us Such a painful distance I'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now So I don't have to hold on to this burning heart This burning heart is getting old, getting old While sitting on this cold kitchen floor, Head down to hide the tears, ive realized I've finally realized that you were never meant for me no matter how much I still think otherwise

Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behindI'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark In Catholic school as vicious as Roman ruleI got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black And I held my tongue as she told me "Son fear is the heart of love" So I never went back You and me have seen everything to seeFrom Bangkok to Calgary And the soles of your shoes are all worn down The time for sleep is now It's nothing to cry aboutCause we'll hold each other soon The blackest of rooms

kinda sorta it's ok

There you were last night sitting close to her by candlelight
I couldn’t let you see my crying eyes
but I wanted so bad to run to you
How could you find someone in just so little time
We said we’d be friends maybe one day ­
give us one more try
I can’t understand,
it happened so fast Six months have passed
Now suddenly it's all back

decisions

There are certain people you just keep coming back to She is right in front of you You begin to wonder could you find a better one Compared to her now she's in question And all at once the crowd begins to sing Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same Maybe you want her maybe you need her maybe you started to compare to someone not there Looking for the right one you line up the world to find Where no questions cross your mind But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt Much longer for you to sort it out And all at once the crowd begins to sing Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same Maybe you want her maybe you need her Maybe you started to compare to someone not there Maybe you want it maybe you need it, Maybe it's all you're running from, Perfection will not come

just get out

livelovelaugh

sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there: to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. you never know who these people may be, but when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart. everything happens for a reason. nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul. without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. the people you meet affect your life. the successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. if someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart. if someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. make every day count. appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again. talk to people who you have never talked to before, and actually listen. let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. hold you head up because you have every right to. tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. create you own life and then go out and live it the best you can.

distinction

lets's face it ; we've changed. we've all changedsomewhere between summer ending & schoolstarting. we've all gone in our own directions, heartshave been broken ; friendships diminished ; new lovesstarted & new people came into our lives. we nolonger spend all our time together in our circle of friends& we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. we'veall changed. some for the better, others for the worse.but in the end, we'll always have the memories that wehad once shared together & the laughs that will never go away& in some way we will always be connected and come together

it's sucha shame

I am dialing your number. I am pressing the buttons like salesmen pinch your pockets and squeeze their respect down to nothing. I can't blame them because I am also trying to sell you something, but with me, there are no vulgar catches or billboards with fancy, flashy letters expressing ideas like "Free", while under my breath I am not snickering and I'm not hoping that you catch on. There's something different about you. You did catch on, knowing very well what you were getting yourself into and all I want to know now is why you did it. You are right: you are wrapped around my finger and I hope you like it there because I love to see your smile when I raise my hand up in a quieting motion so that my lips can touch yours in peace. You mustn't utter a sound during the reaction in which you placed me. The salesmen have called and left before I could answer and I hope it's not the same with you. Was it you or me who called the other? Either way, one of us answered and the officials are on our side. That "No Loitering" sign is looking pretty desolate since I left it when you entered the room. The door is always open for you and tonight the stars are out twice as long.
The numbers I've recently pressed are circling through the airwaves now, and I am anxiously awaiting for you to greet me on the other end. Each time I hear the pulse my spine gets nervous and faints and I have to become a horizontal girl instead because I am incredibly in love with you.
Pulse, pulse, pulse.

time.

Can you feel it can you feel it can you feel it as it rushes up for air?As it never has before your goodnight kiss went exceptionally well and yet I can still feel the room the need for improvement inside myself the one spot where I can truly say ‘It’s time it’s time’ without regretting anything and still something inside is edging its way out it’s déja vu like a familiar sound it’s the melody of love and lust and it’s coming up for oxygen because love is a body in itself and its lungs strive for cleanliness just like the ones of the girl whose heart you hold and you’re going to hold for a long time because she can feel it and she knows it and it’s all going to be really satisfying and in the end you're hers and she's yours and you're both so happy that the sun sets each night.

just keep it together

Hold on baby your losing it.

the waters high. Your jumping into it

. && letting go and no one knows.

You cry but you tell noone.

you might not be the golden one.

&& your tied together with a smile.

but your coming undone.

simple yet destructive

Memories

Memory- is a way of holding onto the things you love,
the things you are and the things you never want to lose

you will always be on my mind
these feelings won't change
when i'm 50 you'll be sitting right next to me
we'll look back and laugh
at how we used to be and realize
that it hasnt changed
we're still in love

delicate

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's overAnd I can't pretend...
I won't think about you when
I'm olderCause we never really had our closure
This can't be the endI really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

engagement

Sidewalks&streetlights; you're clutching your suitcase,
I'm fighting with broken eyes.
We'll take the long way home.
Your kisses are leaving my lips numb,
I'm jealous of headlights cause they're all that clings to you.
I pray that our shoes melt in the pavement
,we step back slowly, I'll take the long way home.
Just one more time, they'll be playing our song.

make believe love

in this instance this single moment when our worlds collide.
the wire of eternity twists around us.
its the downfall that makes us go.
it makes the synesthesia come to life.
i can feel this river rising, moving up my back,
some things never change, some things never go away

dreams.goals.letdowns.internal happiness.

I've hardly been outside my room in days,'cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,And it was then I realize the conscience never fades.When you're young you have this image of your life:That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,And if you happen to you wake completely lost.But I will fight for you, be sure thatI will fight until we're the special two once again.And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,When we're the special two.And we could only see each other, we'll bleed together,These arms will not be taught to need another,'Cause we were the special two.I remember someone old once said to me:"That lies will lock you up with truth the only key."But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,But if by chance you change your mind you know I will not let you down'cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.I step outside my mind's eye's for a minute.And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,Or something that could ease the pain.But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,Just remembering

past.

An empty room can be so deafening,The silence makes you wanna scream,It drives you crazy.I chased away the shadows of your name,And burned the picture in a frame,But it couldn't save me.And how could we quit something we never even tried Well you still can't tell me why.We built it up,To watch it fall.Like we meant nothing at all.I gave and gave the best of me,But couldn't give you what you need You walked away,You stole my life,Just to find what your looking for.But no matter how I try,I can't hate you anymore....I can't hate you anymore.Your not the person who you used to be,The one I want who wanted me,And that's a shame but,There's only so many tears that you can cry.Before it drains the light right from your eyes,And I can't go on that way And so I'm letting of everything we were,It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.We built it up,To watch it fall.Like we meant nothing at all.I gave and gave the best of me,But couldn't give you what you need.You walked away,You stole my life,Just to find what your looking for.But no matter how I try,I can't hate you anymore.Sometimes you hold so tight,It slips right through your hands.Will I ever understand?We built it up,To watch it fall.Like we meant nothing at all.I gave and gave the best of me,But couldn't give you what you need.You walked away,You stole my life,Just to find what your looking for.But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore

heartbeativemissedyou

what just happened? did you kiss me? cause that's a place we've never been until now and i dunno how we're gunna be after this. do we pretend these feelings don't exist at all? or do we fall? my confusion shows whenever you stand so close, i stumble i stutter forget what to say. I'm nervous, i wonder why i'm acting like this. it's temporary insanity whats going on with you and me is it real or just fantasy? forever or just temporary? you made a move don't change your mind theres to much to lose now we've crossed the line between friends and something more. Was it all a big mistake/ cause if it was it's to much and to late to undo. & i really don't want to let you go but i still don't know how i feel about you is it meant to be? hey what you to do me, what's come over me? if this is crazy there's nothing i'd rather be than here with you now. let's figure this out.

goodtobad

you know whats funny? how you act like it didnt happen.

the way you deny ever even concitering it. now tell me something,

tell me what your intentions were? maybe it was a game to you?

or i don't know maybe it was just my fault again.

well this game you're playing.

i guess she won sure i went down without a fight or maybe i did fight?

i don't know but i had no other options.

i tried for nothing, i thought things that wern't true,

& for some strange reason i thought things might go good this time.

but cmon who was i kidding.

i know you're not ready for something serious.

but you're really warming up to her,

which is good if its what you want.

i want you to be happy don't get me wrong

i just don't understand what just happened?

but you really made me think,

and you really made me miserable.

acception

Growing up is never straight forward, it’s never easy. There are moments when absolutely everything is perfect, but it can turn around so quickly. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. Things that you wish would never happen do. You have to accept there are things that you don’t want to know but you have to learn. There are people that you cant live without, but you have to let go. You will always have some type of feelings for your first love. You have to realize that if he is dumb enough to walk away, then you should be smart enough to let go. Never regret what you did, your mistakes, your faults, your success’s every little choice you made, have made you who you are. Its scary to think about the future, and what would you would be like if the people who are a huge part of your life, weren’t in it. Moving on is simple, what your leaving behind is what hurts. There are moments that mark your life; moments where you realize nothing will ever be the same again. Time is divided into two parts, before and after. You may not end up where you thought you'd be,but you'll always end up where you were meant to be. We just have to accept the fact that people will stay in our hearts even if they don't stay in our lives.

redundant

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you And maybe turning my back would be that much easier Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange But I can't watch you walk away Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you? And all about the good times that we've been through? Could I wake up without you every day? Would I let you walk away? No, I can't learn to live without And I can't give up on us now I know I could say we're through And tell myself I'm over you but even if I made a vow I promise not to miss you now And try to hide the truth inside I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me? And all the reasons that make loving you so easy The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe The way you know just what I mean No, I can't learn to live withou\ so don't you give up on us now I know I could say we're through And tell myself I'm over you But even if I made a vow I promise not to miss you now And try to hide the truth inside I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie and I don't wanna try

admiration

This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend. This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.