undetermined

it's interesting how one phone call, one trip to the doctors or one knock on your door can virtually change your life as it stands. No more future plans, no more relif of knowing you have some kind of a plan. It's all take away by those communicational figures. You have to start over and re think everything out. you could lose someone you didn't even have yet. and have it feel substantially painful. Lose someone whom you thought was important. It can change your thought of mind, your beleifs, even your thought on life. It determins your motivation to succeed and conitune life as it is. with new changes. unexpected ones. maybe this is to teach you vaules. and how to over come such circumstances. I'm not really sure. but it's like everyones life plans or just admirable characteristics are falling apart and comming undone right before everyones eyes. and reality shows us there's nothing we can do.

learning

i've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others best but the best you can do. i've learned you can't make someone love you but you should be that person who can be loved. i've realized you can speak what you feel but people won't always care. rarely do they ever. i've learned things will never get to the point where it's accepted by everyone. i've noticed trust takes a long time to build up and only a split second to lose it all. i've learned to tell the people you love the sweet things, you never know if you'll be able to talk to them the next day. i've learned there are some people who do love you, they just don't know how to show it. i've learned you have to forgive yourself and accept certain events to be able to move on. i've learned if you are honest with yourself you'll get farther in life with less pain. i've realized memories can hurt because thats all they'll ever be. i've learned you shouldn't regret things because just remember at somepoint it was what you wanted. i've learned you don't have to put up with peoples negativity. i've learned it's hard to draw a line between love and lust. i've just learned

sometimes the truth hurts

you screwed me over like always

maybe one day you will be sorry

fiction

there are two kinds of secrets;

those we keep from others and those we keep from ourselves

intensity

I've got this feeling that there's something that I missed
(I could do most anything to you...) Don't you breathe
Something happened, that I never understood
You can't leave
Every second, dripping off my fingertips
Wage your war
Another soldier, says he's not afraid to die Well I am scared
In slow motion, the blast is beautiful
Doors slam shut A clock is ticking,
but it's hidden far away
Safe and sound

undefinable

love is not perfect and it is not a fairytale or a story book,
it`s a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.
It does not always come easy, or with advantages.
Love is overcoming the obstacles, facing the challenges and fighting to be together,
holding on and never letting go of what you got.
Love is work, but most of all it is realizing that every hour,
every minuteof every second of it was worth it
because you were in it together.

nights like these

Life is made up of moments you can't control, and people you can either love or hate. No one in this life is perfect, we all make mistakes. Mistakes we can accept, or let control and contort our lives. No matter how old you are, how much you make or risks you take. It all comes down to you, don't blame people who you thought put you to shame. Take pride in your accomplishments, and move on from your short commings. Don't gloat or brag, be proud for the sake of being proud.Feel happy because you know you have earned it, not because someone made you feel that way, YOU DID IT. You've only got one life to live, make it or break it. Its yours for the taking."innocence is brilliant i hope that it will stay" It's nights like these that make me sleep all day. It's nights like these that make you feel so far away.It's nights like these when nothing is for sure. It's nights like these I don't want you anymore. And I've only got this one wish that I was good enough to make you forget the only boy who ever broke your heart cause nights like these tear me apart. It's nights like these the sad songs don't help. It's nightslike these your heart's with someone else. It's nights like these I feel like giving up