time.

Can you feel it can you feel it can you feel it as it rushes up for air?As it never has before your goodnight kiss went exceptionally well and yet I can still feel the room the need for improvement inside myself the one spot where I can truly say ‘It’s time it’s time’ without regretting anything and still something inside is edging its way out it’s déja vu like a familiar sound it’s the melody of love and lust and it’s coming up for oxygen because love is a body in itself and its lungs strive for cleanliness just like the ones of the girl whose heart you hold and you’re going to hold for a long time because she can feel it and she knows it and it’s all going to be really satisfying and in the end you're hers and she's yours and you're both so happy that the sun sets each night.

just keep it together

Hold on baby your losing it.

the waters high. Your jumping into it

. && letting go and no one knows.

You cry but you tell noone.

you might not be the golden one.

&& your tied together with a smile.

but your coming undone.

simple yet destructive

Memories

Memory- is a way of holding onto the things you love,
the things you are and the things you never want to lose

you will always be on my mind
these feelings won't change
when i'm 50 you'll be sitting right next to me
we'll look back and laugh
at how we used to be and realize
that it hasnt changed
we're still in love

delicate

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's overAnd I can't pretend...
I won't think about you when
I'm olderCause we never really had our closure
This can't be the endI really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

engagement

Sidewalks&streetlights; you're clutching your suitcase,
I'm fighting with broken eyes.
We'll take the long way home.
Your kisses are leaving my lips numb,
I'm jealous of headlights cause they're all that clings to you.
I pray that our shoes melt in the pavement
,we step back slowly, I'll take the long way home.
Just one more time, they'll be playing our song.

make believe love

in this instance this single moment when our worlds collide.
the wire of eternity twists around us.
its the downfall that makes us go.
it makes the synesthesia come to life.
i can feel this river rising, moving up my back,
some things never change, some things never go away

dreams.goals.letdowns.internal happiness.

I've hardly been outside my room in days,'cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,And it was then I realize the conscience never fades.When you're young you have this image of your life:That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,And if you happen to you wake completely lost.But I will fight for you, be sure thatI will fight until we're the special two once again.And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,When we're the special two.And we could only see each other, we'll bleed together,These arms will not be taught to need another,'Cause we were the special two.I remember someone old once said to me:"That lies will lock you up with truth the only key."But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,But if by chance you change your mind you know I will not let you down'cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.I step outside my mind's eye's for a minute.And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,Or something that could ease the pain.But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,Just remembering

past.

An empty room can be so deafening,The silence makes you wanna scream,It drives you crazy.I chased away the shadows of your name,And burned the picture in a frame,But it couldn't save me.And how could we quit something we never even tried Well you still can't tell me why.We built it up,To watch it fall.Like we meant nothing at all.I gave and gave the best of me,But couldn't give you what you need You walked away,You stole my life,Just to find what your looking for.But no matter how I try,I can't hate you anymore....I can't hate you anymore.Your not the person who you used to be,The one I want who wanted me,And that's a shame but,There's only so many tears that you can cry.Before it drains the light right from your eyes,And I can't go on that way And so I'm letting of everything we were,It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.We built it up,To watch it fall.Like we meant nothing at all.I gave and gave the best of me,But couldn't give you what you need.You walked away,You stole my life,Just to find what your looking for.But no matter how I try,I can't hate you anymore.Sometimes you hold so tight,It slips right through your hands.Will I ever understand?We built it up,To watch it fall.Like we meant nothing at all.I gave and gave the best of me,But couldn't give you what you need.You walked away,You stole my life,Just to find what your looking for.But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore

heartbeativemissedyou

what just happened? did you kiss me? cause that's a place we've never been until now and i dunno how we're gunna be after this. do we pretend these feelings don't exist at all? or do we fall? my confusion shows whenever you stand so close, i stumble i stutter forget what to say. I'm nervous, i wonder why i'm acting like this. it's temporary insanity whats going on with you and me is it real or just fantasy? forever or just temporary? you made a move don't change your mind theres to much to lose now we've crossed the line between friends and something more. Was it all a big mistake/ cause if it was it's to much and to late to undo. & i really don't want to let you go but i still don't know how i feel about you is it meant to be? hey what you to do me, what's come over me? if this is crazy there's nothing i'd rather be than here with you now. let's figure this out.

goodtobad

you know whats funny? how you act like it didnt happen.

the way you deny ever even concitering it. now tell me something,

tell me what your intentions were? maybe it was a game to you?

or i don't know maybe it was just my fault again.

well this game you're playing.

i guess she won sure i went down without a fight or maybe i did fight?

i don't know but i had no other options.

i tried for nothing, i thought things that wern't true,

& for some strange reason i thought things might go good this time.

but cmon who was i kidding.

i know you're not ready for something serious.

but you're really warming up to her,

which is good if its what you want.

i want you to be happy don't get me wrong

i just don't understand what just happened?

but you really made me think,

and you really made me miserable.

acception

Growing up is never straight forward, it’s never easy. There are moments when absolutely everything is perfect, but it can turn around so quickly. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. Things that you wish would never happen do. You have to accept there are things that you don’t want to know but you have to learn. There are people that you cant live without, but you have to let go. You will always have some type of feelings for your first love. You have to realize that if he is dumb enough to walk away, then you should be smart enough to let go. Never regret what you did, your mistakes, your faults, your success’s every little choice you made, have made you who you are. Its scary to think about the future, and what would you would be like if the people who are a huge part of your life, weren’t in it. Moving on is simple, what your leaving behind is what hurts. There are moments that mark your life; moments where you realize nothing will ever be the same again. Time is divided into two parts, before and after. You may not end up where you thought you'd be,but you'll always end up where you were meant to be. We just have to accept the fact that people will stay in our hearts even if they don't stay in our lives.

redundant

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you And maybe turning my back would be that much easier Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange But I can't watch you walk away Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you? And all about the good times that we've been through? Could I wake up without you every day? Would I let you walk away? No, I can't learn to live without And I can't give up on us now I know I could say we're through And tell myself I'm over you but even if I made a vow I promise not to miss you now And try to hide the truth inside I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me? And all the reasons that make loving you so easy The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe The way you know just what I mean No, I can't learn to live withou\ so don't you give up on us now I know I could say we're through And tell myself I'm over you But even if I made a vow I promise not to miss you now And try to hide the truth inside I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie and I don't wanna try

admiration

This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend. This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.